Take Me Home

Dear Will:

On the morning of June 19, I shimmied into the too-small Team USA jersey Seth had given me. It was like a fat rat being swallowed headfirst by a pencil-thin snake. He and his friends then informed me that I would have to put flag tattoos on both cheeks and wear my too-ugly-to-be-seen-in-public patriotic running hat. This was not negotiable. It was still four hours before game time, and the excitement and anticipation inside our Airbnb was electric.

We walked a block to a diner for breakfast, entering too loudly and unapologetically. On our way to our table, we stopped to slap five with a group of bro’s dressed in matching red-white-and-blue overalls. “Where are you guys sitting?” we asked them. “Oh, we don’t have tickets,” they told us. “We’re just going downtown to one of the watch parties!” They seemed genuinely delighted.

After breakfast, we walked several blocks to the metro, Seth and his buddies adorned in red-white-and-blue sunnies and flag capes. Strangers honked and waved as we pumped our fists and answered back with “U-S-A! U-S-A!” As we made our way down into the underground, we hooted and hollered with others, anxiously awaiting a train to carry us into downtown Seattle. The first train to arrive was already packed with fans. It looked like 500 candy canes stuffed into a box made to hold 250. Everyone was smiling. The next train gathered us in, and once again we greeted and dapped up other fans adorned to similar excess. This was really happening. We were going to the World Cup!

The train unleashed us somewhere in downtown, but there was no question where we needed to go. Everywhere we looked, we could see rivulets of red, white, and blue Americans alongside smaller streams of yellow-and-green Australians. We waded in, eventually merging with a river of supporters, flowing toward Lumen Field. There were Americans dressed in revolutionary war garb, Aussies hoisting inflatable kangaroos, fans of every shape and size and ethnicity. We chanted, posed for pictures with inebriated rivals, wished the Aussies luck (but not too much luck) as we snaked our way toward the field. We were bouncing.

Inside the stadium, you could feel the tension and noise rising as 60,000+ people found their way to their seats. When the time came for the national anthem, everybody sang, poorly but beautifully, a full-throated tribute like you will never hear at a weeknight ballgame at your local ballpark. As the game began, we chanted and chanted and chanted, banged our hands and threw ourselves into our roles with full-bodied commitment. Those of us in the stands were determined to be a force.

Ten minutes in, the US team scored and the place exploded in euphoria. We hugged each other, double-slapped the guys behind us, teased a high-five from the kid one row up, felt the collective embrace of tens of thousands of others who were joining us in celebration throughout the stadium. When the second goal came, the reaction could only properly be measured with a Richter scale. (It was.) We all stood for the duration of the 90-minute contest, sitting only for hydration breaks (whatever it takes, right?). When at last the referee blew his whistle, signaling the end of a 2–0 USA victory, the boys and I high-fived it up with everyone around us and hollered at the top of our lungs. We remained standing, chanting, whooping, nobody but the Australians wanting to leave.

Then (strangely) someone cued the music: John Denver’s “Take Me Home, Country Roads.” I thought, John Denver? But hey, we won, didn’t we? So we joined right in. Some of us knew every word, but everyone knew the chorus. It was magical, unlike anything I have experienced. Even the players joined in. And in the moment, we were truly together, united, one nation under God, as the saying goes. No more red versus blue. Only red, white and blue. As it should be.

Tomorrow is our nation’s 250th birthday. I will (gladly and intentionally) avoid the “official” celebrations that have been co-opted and turned into political rallies which will, no doubt, highlight our differences and perceived grievances. Instead I’ll contort my way into that too-small shirt and throw on my ugly lucky hat. I’ll attend an early-morning flag raising ceremony in which a ragtag collection of sleepy Scouts will outdo anything a Marine Corps honor guard could ever hope to muster. I’ll pledge allegiance. I’ll sing (if my emotions let me) whatever patriotic hymns they serve up. After that, I’ll join with many of my favorite people on the planet for a pancake breakfast, an event I’ve been attending for almost 30 years. The flapjacks will be (let’s be honest) not that great. There will be crumbly scrambled eggs, imitation maple syrup, and margarine in a squeeze bottle. But the company will be unrivaled. The spirit of it all will be joyous, with an abundance of laughter and love. At some point I will reach for a breakfast sausage, either slightly undercooked or charred almost beyond recognition (there is rarely an in between), and I will look around me at the scene. It will feel so good, so familiar, so right, so true. Like coming home. To the place I belong.

Happy birthday, America. Go team!

PW

Photo by Tim Foster

In Defense of Dubious Alternatives

Dear Will:

Across the room I can see my Voter Information pamphlet. It’s been sitting there for days, unopened. Every time I glance that way it fills me with dread. I have put off quite successfully what I can now put off no longer—I must, it seems, set aside some time to read up on the initiatives and try to determine which side’s rhetoric is less difficult to believe. Then I must go through the ballot and try to decide whether I should vote for the incompetent incumbent or the unqualified challenger. (Or is it the unqualified incumbent and the incompetent challenger? I can never remember.)

As you can probably tell, I have become a bit of a political cynic, but I wasn’t always this way. I came out of high school filled with idealistic political zeal, excited to exercise my franchise and support the democracy. Alas, the first election in which I could vote featured a gubernatorial race between the hyper-liberal guy-in-office and his super-conservative wannabe challenger. As I considered my options, it was quickly apparent that I didn’t want either of those guys for my governor. Since that moment of disappointment I have lived through dozens of elections characterized by many such dubious alternatives. And I hate it.

Part of my problem, quite clearly, is that I keep hoping for someone who represents me as opposed to some guy who primarily represents the various interests who are willing to fund his campaign. I’m not happily Republican or Democrat, I’m afraid, but rather some sort of strange hodgepodge of beliefs and passions. I’m an actual moderate rather than a candidate pretending to be one, the result being that I agree with some things, disagree with others, and can’t find a single politico who is willing to say that I’m right. It seems, anyway, that the exigencies of the modern campaign (fundraising, primarily) make it impossible for any aspiring politician to say what most reasonable people already know: that half of each party’s platform is hooey. And that polarization of positions is exacerbated by the misrepresentations and falsities on which both parties rely in order to gather votes through advertising: Too often our representatives can’t do the right thing because they know it will be twisted and used against them later on. So when I vote, I either get the baggage of one party or the baggage of the other and generally come away from the polls feeling disgruntled and somewhat disenfranchised.

But I do keep voting. Every election, no matter how many Tom Haydens or Michael Huffingtons appear on the ballot, I march down to the polling station and give it my best shot. Even though I sometimes wonder if it really makes any difference, I feel it my duty because of my respect for the institution. I love my country and believe with great passion in the principles upon which it was founded. I truly believe that the Constitution is an inspired document and remain amazed at how well it is holding us all together in spite of the crazy turns our nation has taken during the last 200 years.

I apologize if any of the preceding rant offends you. (I got a little worked up there, didn’t I?) Obviously, this is a bit of a sore subject for me to address. But when I look around the world and see so many places in which democracy has not yet taken root, I am reminded once again that it is a divine privilege to cast a vote—even when you’re dissatisfied with your options. I hope you feel the same. See you at the polls.

PW